Pornography As Your Bread and Butter

ANTO COMETA

Just a disclaimer, the title of the post doesn't allude to or suggest that I'm into the profession of engaging or at the least directly generating a sexually oriented material that is not considered acceptable to the viewer, or any material which can cause sexual excitement. I just want an eye catchy header for this particular web blog entry and not to depict that the content of the post could provoke feelings of lust for those who would be reading this or even generate a controversial socio-political issue that could make critics raise their eyebrows.

It has been a while that I got on board to this web services company which by far is the best company that I had (currently, still employed and has no plans of resigning for at least three years or so). Anyway, let’s have a back track; several months ago I was employed as a brand manager at the same time a TV program producer for a certain television network. My work back there was quite tedious (since they made me work for at least twelve hours a day for six days a week for three business units, and according to the person whom I directly report to that the TV program that I was managing should not be my priority and that I should not allot a day for the program since it was not earning a single cent) not to mention that the people I worked for were very dim-witted and at the same time snooty. After a month of working, I just realized that I was not meant for the job that they gave me (to give justice to the company I worked for).

Prior to resigning, I got several calls and e-mails from the companies where I applied for certain managerial job posts. But a certain e-mail caught my attention. It was an e-mail from an HR staff whereby the content stated that I would be interviewed by their expat CEO. Well, I was not surprised that I would be interviewed by the head of a company, but what astounded me was that when I replied to her e-mail, she e-mailed back in less than five minutes (that was quite fast). On the day of the interview with the CEO, I was late for more than an hour (the reason was that I don’t know the street in Makati where their building is), that was quite embarrassing but I did apologize for being late. We talked for almost two hours, and towards the end, he discussed the tasks of the post their company was offering if ever I would be employed. It was not that clear to me until the time I got on board and did certain things online which most people would deem hedonistic.

After weeks of training and eventually engaging in some online adult related stuff (off page SEO initiatives), I just realized that I'm not that perverted and that browsing more than 3,000 adult sites (a general term used for websites that contain adult content such as pornographic images among others) in a span of a week was not that really enjoyable. Moreover, I just realized that there are a lot of sick fetishes (which in my standards are very repulsive) that certain people are fond of.

My family except my mom knows that I’m working for a company which caters to adult related sites. I don’t want to disclose to her that I’m currently working for a company that provides pecuniary services to adult related sites. I guess this is due to the fact that my mom is a Christian (partly, I am too) and that if she would know that I’m engaged into something related to that, she would definitely ask me to immediately pass my resignation letter to my superior.

Personally, I really don’t like pornography (although I have to say that at some point I got hooked browsing some interracial adult sites and have watched free video clips) but I guess if your profession requires that you have to do several things for that, which is contradictory to your personal moral standards, I would say that you have to detach yourself from such self-indulging activities and just focus and tell yourself over and over (reckon as if it’s a mantra) that it’s just part of your work.